The fourth

4th night.
I always think that tears get dried up, but it nv did.
The same as how I nv learnt my lesson.
I read back uk exchanges.
I really tried so Hard, at 6/7am in the morning.
And now almost 3am in the morning.
I survived then so these few days were nothing compared to then.
Why did I even try so Hard, in return for a "you lead your sg life while I lead my uk life".
Why did I even try so hard in return for a future like now.
It's so not worth it.

2 shots of idk what was it, didn't work.
Sober as hell, I wish I wasn't.
How to escape feeling.
How to stop tearing before and after bed.