2 Bs

there are many many things to blog about (as usual).
there are many many things to be done.
i don't think 1 day is even enough.
but 1 day is long.
have been trying to sleep early.
but i never do.
the earliest i slept was 11.30pm, together with bueller.
other than that it was 2am plus everyday.

today is a happy day.
but i still miss my bueller.
i think this is my best of all his trip ever.
because i haven't really felt neglected at all.
then i wonder, why it couldn't be like this last year.
this should be how it is for all of our overseas trips without each another.
not all the squabbles each and every time we are not together.
you dk how much i'm loving and enjoying this.
all the buzzzing around, waking up to 20 over texts from him.
😍😍😍
plus one day bonus video call tour around the aquariam.
plus video calls every day.
too legit to be true even.
so so so happy iz me even though i miss him.
constant updates, even though i'm not there.
the kinda "leading the taiwan life but also leading to sg life" achieved.
constant updates by me too.
and all the understandings that even though he was having fun, it was tiring too cos walk damn alot and need travel round and round.
and i understand how tiring it is cos kr trip had done that to me and it was just cray cray crazy.
it makes me feel that i can do this, like we've totally got it and having everything under control.
😁😁😁

today is a happy day because!
i had a sweeet and good and happy dream!
i dreamt of bueller, and in that dream he searched for me in the crowd and held my hands in my most spazz-able outfit.
then we went to 7-11 to buy food, and i got to hughug him!!!
its like cheap thrillls.
cos i dont get to see him now, and dreams are like the closest and real-est i can get to him?!
please lemme dream of him again tonight!
then i'm going to be a happy girl every single day.
hahahha.
i rmb last year during that month, i had constant nightmares about him and that bich.

oh! that marks today.
29 june.
worst date in the entire history.
grrrrr.

anw i think i finally get used to being outcasted.
and for some reason, i feel that i can finally support myself on my own.
after 2 weeks.
it feels like bff holding me on one side, bf holding me on the other side.
then now the both of them have let me go.
and i'm walking fine on my own.
but they are both still walking beside me, ready to hold me anytime should i fall.
and.
you know how good and awesome it feeels rn.
to have both of them.
it feels like my life have a new found meaning.
legit.
I LOVE IT SO DAMN MUCH PLEASEEEE.
like this is how things should be like from the start??
i feel sooo loved by the both of them, and they make me feel like a precious big baby.
and that no matter what i do (except for making them angry), they will support me no matter what.
and to hear the both of them giving me the same advice, its like waaaaa.
both my precious two treasures.
💛💛💛💛💛💛
love the both of them sooo sooo sooo muchieeee.
and have i mentioned? how grateful i am to have them with me.
a million thanks isn't even enough.

despite the drama that has been ongoing recently,
i feel so blessed and happy while i'm with the both of them.
esp bueller, who accompanied me through every single moment, providing shelter for me.
a guy who doesn't leaves, a guy who stays and keep me on track throughout.
thankew bueller.
i appreciate it deeply.
and the other, who is willing to hear me out and also be there for me whenever i have something to tell her. (:
i have managed to keep my sane and pulled through till now with the both of them.
honestly, i may not be here alive at all today if not for them both.

this bueller have been so so so sweeeeet recently.
i keep on melting like an olaf.
sooo touched.
princess treatments, super duper taken care of, and him worrying for me.
feeling sooo loved tooo.
chuwa max max max.
but i hope the bad isn't coming yet or at all.
there have been so much fun times with bueller and i love every single second we spend together.
👫👫👫
can't wait to see him when he is back.
2 more days!!!
missu missu~