tummy flu

after 4 days of hell.
i'm finally eating!
that feeling of hunger.
hungry, but can't eat.
is shitty af.
and constantly wanting to vomit.
tummy growling like mad but can't eat anything at all.
felt like i was starving.
how did i survive 2 weeks that time.
but that time more of diarrhoea than vomiting.
and i managed to eat some porridge.
but i had fever that time too.
ughhh.
either way, both sucks.

it was sooo uncomfy, and sooo unchuwa.
that everytime i had bueller to comfort me i just break down.
cos it felt like no one cares.
i'm an unwanted little child.
soo thankful to have bueller with me.
i wouldn't know how to survive without him if he wasn't by my side all these while.
bff also, i just ramble on and on even though she's busy and stuff.
and both of them just shows me constant support, bueller more ofc.
like for some reason, idk what's family there for anymore.
the idea of renting still hasnt' gone away.
but they are all so damn exp.
i will be broke by the time i get a job.
thank bueller for wanting me, for taking care of me and for showering me with love.
was this how he felt when he was sick that time, nobody cared haha.

i'm so glad this ordeal is over.
it's been a shitty week with everything cancelled and staying at home facing monster.
busy week coming up.
i hope i don't fall sick again cos i will need to stay up again.