die-yet

It's a Wednesday afternoon.
And I'm home alone.
Ironing my clothes.
Facing the window.
Watching the rain as it comes and go.
Getting heavier and slowly subsiding.
Then again it repeats.
On my Spotify.
Having every second to myself.
It feels very peaceful.
Not lonesome.
Feels good.
(:
Just want to blog this moment down.
Nice music at the background.
Chuwa such noons.
(: 

I am miss potato now and someday I'm going to be a slim as fries.

#wish

#hope

then it stopped raining and started raining heavily again.
and started thundering and lightning.
scaredy me was hiding under the blanket.
then i went for dinner.
and now im back on this post. 

muji cafe on sat. 

when diet starts. 

die-yet, pronounced as diet, meaning yet to die from dieting. hahahha.

the first time EVER, ME, did not finish the bowl of rice.

instead, ate half of it.

much achievement.

supposed to be eating ramen, then changed to tomo, then this.

yum yum this meal. 

have been eating so much veggie that this meal looks so good now.

i need some hot food.

i cmi on salads and wraps hahha.

i can't really rmb when i started, but i think 4th jan.

so time check now is only a week.

i practically feel like dying already.

SO HARD.

cries.

why am i even torturing myself. 

honestly, i just need to fall sick and eat little and porridge.

at least falling sick gives me a reason not to take cold and sweet and fried stuff.

losing weight does not.

more of restricting. 

unhappy tummy is a unhappy me.

feels like i just gave up on food when i love eating so much hahaha.

that's why fatty is me.

booohoooo.

frantically searching for recipes online and getting inspiration from everywhere to have lose weight meals yet nice nice hot meals.

the old hair style.

saturdate. 

belly rare.

thought there was something special cos it was way too random.

actually there was nothing at all.

hurhur.

the day i read in the library.

with the view in front.

that made me thoughtful.

was just wondering what goes beyond those windows.

and all the office people.

and all the cars below.

and all the people walking on the streets.

it always feels good to be watching from above.

and no one knows they were being watched. 

and so i was staring out for abit.

deep in thoughts.

then we went to starbucks cos our eyes lit up when we saw 1 for 1 on my app.

but only for promotional drinks.

can't believe i drank this.

the amt of fats and sugar and calorie.

high until kennut.

the hardest part of dieting is actually cutting or zero junk and sweet drinks.

i'm such a junkie person.

and i can't deny that i love sweet drinks.

so yeah.

somebody threw temper over whipped cream.

HURUMPH.

but anw was drawing instead of reading.

it was soooo fun. 

and super entertaining.

just felt like drawing.

so there.

这样随便画画就过了一个小时啦。

everything that represents him.

hohoho. and i realised that there were alot.

still got more actually. like a bull.

chanced upon this shop while we were walking aimlessly.

looking for dinner place since we gave up on KR.

and somebody restless liao.

good choice cos it totally fits my diet.

thankew so muchie.

this looked good.

i had 3 bites of this fried mushroom tempura.

just tiny bites.

so i don't feel so sinful after the starbucks hahah.

it tasted sooo goood.

but must control.

then bull said that they shouldn't add all enoki.

but mix other types of mushrooms.

i didn't even realise that cos my bites were tiny hahah.

so artistic hor!

i also blogger hahaah.

then i had this soba wih minced patty.

the soba was way too nua and i would have preferred it better if they gave me a bowl of dipping sauce.

soba without dipping sauce is just weird.

they added basil into the chicken but it wasn't over powering so it was fine.

at least bull and i both agree on basil instead of lemongrass hahaha.

not italian herbs but oriental herbs, and is something i've tasted before.

so silly of us to figure that out like sensory ahahha.

this was bull's.

it was very tasty.

despite no visible sauces.

he didn't mind the soba surprisingly hahaha. 

for mine it was really unacceptable.

ughhh.

probably too used to somen texture.

mr grouchy has his hair cut, 1 day after me!

very good boy actually, cos got this naggy gf nagging at him to cut hair cut hair cut hair after knowing he dislike cutting hair.

he must have regretted telling me that hahah.

or feeling chuwa because somebody is caring for him and his appearance.

no wonder he always delay and drag cutting hair.

tmr tmr tmr tmr nv comes.

comes after a long long time until too hot cmi then cut.

he told me not to take pic but i still took.

must take pic of grouchy face.

haahah.

he always say i xiaohaizi.

he then the biggest xiaohaizi lo.

keep peering and glancing at me.

like asking me to save him.

or asking me to tell the person hurry up.

or ask when the person gonna be done.

hahahhahaha.

i kennut.

silly boy indeed.

selfieeeee.

handsum boy and pretty gal with our new hair. 

i don't feel energised enough from the food i'm having.

so that affects my mood to exercise too.

ahhahaha.

like so sian and super no feel to workout at all with such crappy foood.

sadz.

hopefully. 明天会更好。

bull says i should come up with cheat day.

good idea i might consider.

but maybe not cos even if give myself cheat day, i don't think i will want to touch those food too.

maybe A BIT.

like i wouldn't imagine myself sitting at macs or eating a macs on cheat day.

so yeah.

all i imagine myself to be is my slimmer face, thinner thighs and flatter tummy.

and picturing in my head all those slim teens out there.

my competitors. his classmates.

roarrr gogogo.

it is quite ridiculous for a person learning nutritional stuff and his gf is fatty. 

like raised eyebrows only hor? hahaha.

ok fight. for slimmer body, better me.

although bf no complains about all my fatty fatty, still being as non judgemental and still loving me the same.

but time to do something to them. i try. 

thankful (: for the no complains yet supportive. 

maybe cheat day as in some koi or desserts?

some fried rice/fried stuff?

some chocs/sweets/munchies?

hmm that sounds good now kekekekke.

eggcited.