decluster

今天不是一月五号，但是感觉很像。
its feels a little like the world came crashing down.
live moves on goes on that's for sure.
still letting it sink in.
its just sad.
like i have not imagined not working with this bunch of people.
this group here.
i guess through the 1 year i've really fallen and gotten use to this place, having so much fun and created so much memories.
a job is just a job but its like all of a sudden all these are taken away from you.
and its just gonna be different.
心很沉，好难入眠。
有一些心事，心里不舒服。
its not because of whoever who made it sad.
its about everyone,
its not easy to find a place where you fit, and its all okay.
neither is it easy to find a place where you have good supportive bosses who are willing to hear you out.
colleagues who are supportive
work is shit but we spend so much time together.
all the obstacles and all.
then suddenly we are all separated.
the dynamics and all are all going to be different.
and also how suddenly we are forced to be separated.
from a team to competitors now.
and you finally have people who know you pattern and style, then suddenly that is taken away from you.
its just going to be so different. :(
and like how people dont understand, that its because you are not given a choice.
when people leave one another, it is a choice. not something that is forced or ordered by authorities.
i guess its the idea of separation that saddens me. 
the sudden separation.
not by choice but by force.
time frame of 3 months.
i guess we just work towards that and see how it goes.
the idea of no longer there.
or no longer with them :(