Bubbles pop

Have been refraining so much from coming here.
Because there's too much to handle.

How to sleep when you are sad?
Blow bubbles?
Have been blowing them for the past 1 hr.
The more I blow the sadder I am.
Watching how these bubbles have a few seconds of freedom, flying high above.
Watching how fast they burst before I could even get a shot of it.
Watching them burst like how my hopes have burst.
Thinking about how sad it is that I don't even get this little bit of freedom.
Thinking about how sad it is to be blowing bubbles at such hours, alone.

It's been a sad sad week.
But I'm glad to have bff and bueller by my side.
Feels like I have a 2nd home when I'm outcasted.
Can I just rent somewhere to stay.
I'm still sad, so sad.
I still feel unfair and unjust.
It is simply so not fair.
I feel maligned.
And that everything is too much to bear.
Over something so trivial.
It is suffocating.
And it feels like living and being alive is wrong.
That I should and probably might as well be dead.
It also feels silly to be feeling sad about it but I can't help it.
Idk how many shoulders do I need to cry on.
How many more sad nights.
This is depressing and saddening to be. 

Back to ecp day.
Super epic and funny moments.
But lotsa frustrating moments too when we couldn't get the bike and kenna stole by so many pigdiot.
Grrrrr.
Started resting and blowing out bubbles.
And overheard someone saying it's coming.
Then I was wondering if that person meant if the rain was coming or tsunami.
Then at that moment bueller said we better get into shelter soon.
While I was gathering my stuff and while we were trying to lock our bikes, the rain got heavier.
Then this bunch of kids in front of us screamed run!!
And both of us together with those kiddos ran into the shelter, and I was like a kiddo too screaming runnnnn.
Hahahahah.
I have never ran out of the rain like this before.
But it was so funnnnn.
Even though that means no more cycling.
Then we camped at macs for the next half an hour or so, waiting for the rain to subside.
When the rain subsided, I went to get my bag to change out of my dirty clothes.
Then the rain decided to maintain and it was getting late for dinner.
So my dear baby bull ran in the rain to get the brolly.
When he came back to the shelter with the brolly, he was carrying a pair of sandals too.
I'm like omggg too sweet I kennut.
He scared my white shoes wet wet and soiled so he brought for me to change.
Then he even say he don't need to use umbrella.
Wa I kennut. I think I melted like olaf.
But since he brought me the sandals I just changed and no we are definitely sharing the umbrella!!
But awwwwww so princess treatment I dieded.
So shyyy also.
Then had late dinner and a quick grocery shopping.

Can't wait for the next 3 days.
Weeeeeee.
But definitely not looking forward to next week.
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Lonesome 1 week for me.
I really dk what to do.
:(