Boohoohoo

Yes I said I will try.

Yes I said I will xiao sadz.

But reality hits hard when it happens.

So I am da sadz now.

Hurhurhur.

I tried games.

Tried social media.

the feeling doesn't go away though.

I just thought that there will be a short short one.

Like a bonus.

Like a reward for me doing well today.

For trying.

But there isn't any.

Like legit just: k I'm done kthkxbye.

Or you know.. maybe a catch up over text than all the updates.

But actually also not alot, just superficial touch and goes. 

I understand the tiredness.

But I don't think it is selfish of me to ask for a little private time for a little while.

Or am I?

Trying not to feel neglected.

But can't help feeling that way.

Trying hard not to cry also.

Feels like a kid who thinks she's gonna get a candy as a reward for being a good kid.

But end up getting nothing cos her mum just sent her to bed even though she's done well.

That's so sad.

And she just curls up on her bed thinking about her candy that never happened.

So me. 

Right now.  

Talking about consistencies.

See that?

No thankew, no sorries today.

Compared to ytd.

Cos my trying was something normal and should have done.

And cos it was meant to be, nothing to be apologetic about. 

As much as a girl seems not to mind or not to care, at her core in her most inner side, she is still brittle.

So very brittle that a light flick will send all the glasses shattering. 

Yuki.

Baeeee. Maybe not cos he ignored me that time. 

But how good would it be if I had a bae to cuddle up with my now, mend a little of me.

Who's that cos this person currently only breaks it over and over again.

Tries to heal it but still breaks it without proper care, with carelessness.  

Too tired.

Brain fried. 

Needs sleep.

Forgot about my day.

Left me without a smile but with a broken heart. 

No but yes I feel neglected.

Cos he can't see me and any other things except for that 1 big thing that's happening at noon.

So sadz iz me now and shall try to head to bed with a broken heart. ): 

Sobz sobz.
I'm just too sad rn cos I didn't get my candy.
My candy is connectivity.
We didn't connect today, we only passed by each other.
Sad kiddo heading to bed.
Sad kiddo curling up on bed.
Crycry.