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咳嗽 ＝ 咳瘦
that's for me.
i'm happy to be sliming down cos i'm sick.
once i'm sick, i slim down. for some reason.
hahaha.
but it sucks.
it sucks to be sick, having a cough.
and it goes on for weeks.
those bitter medication.
all harmful to liver yet getting nowhere better.
took all of them since young.
knowing all types of medication by heart.
other ppl don't even know what they are eating, or what med is for what.
antibiotics too.
all the "ins".
clarithromycin, amoxicillin, ciprofolxacin, cephalexin
for some reasons, doctors like to give me those with C.
oh i even know which are the milder antiB and which are the stronger.
hahahahah.
years of experience.
i can't take ibrupofen.
my eyes will swell up like a goldfish.
but i don't think that's an antiB. it's just NSAID.

in any case.
coughing throughout the night.
then waking up periodically.
interrupted sleep.
then coughing in public places like some retard with chronic diseases.
coughing till throat hurts, back ache, tummy ache.
sooo uncomfy.
that bitter aftertaste from medicine.
ugh.
And when I cough, I cough hard.
Really hard.
The whole body shakes.
The itch just makes me cough hardly.
If I cough lightly, it takes me several more to rid the itch.
I always tell bull. That my abs are cough induced.
Hahaha but obviously he don't buy it.
But legit leh. Coughing out abs is possible.
You try coughing for 2 weeks.
And tell me if your tummy and back hurts.
They will ache like hell man.
then feeling drowsy.
i hate feeling drowsy.
cos it makes me super duper blur.
it makes me waste my day away.
cos once i become drowsy, i tend to sleep.
and i sleep alot.
I can sleep the entire day.
For example, waking up at 11am.
Take brunch and med.
Sleep at 1pm.
Till 5pm. Or say 4pm.
Take 2nd dose of med or tea break, sleep again.
Till dinner time. 6 plus.
Then eat dinner, probably wash up.
Back nuaing on bed by 8pm.
And maybe falling asleep again.
Waking up at 9 plus. Supper cos i cant take med on empty tummy i will get gastrics.
Then take med
11pm Talk to bull. Then ko again.
Basically I can sleep the entire day.
It does have such an effect over me.
I can choose not to sleep too, bt at the end of the day i ko worst than ever hahaha.
Tried and proven.
it feels like your mind is in the present but your soul lost somewhere.
can literally just stare at something and zone off.
or like zone off after focusing on something.
Oh and I hate how it makes me have insomnia after I stop taking the medication.
Cos suddenly you don't feel sleepy due to drowsiness.
It takes a while for the body to adjust back.
And so I have several sleepless nights after all these crappy stuff.
It sucks so much.
i get hungry super duper easily.
but there isn't much food for me to snack always.
cos restricted diet. can't eat alot of food.
cold drinks also.
basically everything also cnt eat and drink.
too sweet, too cold, too heaty.
so dang dang dang.
somebody once told me: food that tastes awful to your mouth are food that is good for you.
food that taste awesome to you mouth are food that are bad for you.
for e.g, fried food.
fried food taste good, no matter how bad they cook it.
but it is bad for your body.
so right now, all the food that taste good = food that are bound to make me cough like mad.
so i'm eating all the yucky bad food.
urgh.

on a side note.
it's always after we have put down the phone that i realise i have loads of things that i didn't say.
so sealy.
stupid brain nv work.