2017

Hello 2017!
Yes I hope you'll be great and all but whatever. 
Is this my first post for the year?
I guess so.
Forever procrastinating and forgetting my original thoughts.
Deserve to aiee myself.

Okiee after sorting my thoughts, I rmb a few.

They are just random stuff that's hangs around on my mind, in my daily life.

What's been pre occupying me recently?
Rage.
When home should be your most comfortable spot, it turns out to be somewhere I want to run away.
Thanks to bull, he gave me a place to run away from and provided me with all the comfort I needed.
Despite the long journey, 我一点都不怨。

it felt very peaceful. because i took bus there.

i love long bus rides for some reason.

very peaceful and don't need to squeeze with the crowded sardine can and no one judge you.

like can sit comfortably, and watch the road. 

i like it alot. 

so even though it takes 1hr and 30mins of travelling time, it doesn't feel that long at all.

that compared to 1hr30mins on train, i feel the suffocation idk why. the kinda can't wait to get down the train feeling.

rather than bus whereby huh reach liao ah...so lazy to get down feeling hahaha.
And it's sweet to have your bz bf walk to the train.
It's like a blessing in disguise.
If we stayed near one another, we might not have bothered doing any of these that we are doing.
Or might have taken such things for granted. 
Quite worried that I might have burdened him.
Because as much as I want to help to cook I feel like I create more trouble than helping.
I want to lessen his burden but it feels like I'm increasing his burden cos I am the burden.
So I am very thankful for his patience and time he has given me.
I know the stress when you feel like you have alot unaccomplished and time is running out.
Time to give bull a break.
For once, time didn't pass that quickly.
But it didn't felt too slow either.
I quite like it. I loved it haha.

the sumptuous meal bull made.

the omu rice looks soooo goood.

looks simple but so damn difficult to make the shape.

curry rice.

so so so yummmmy.

it's just curry rice but it tasted so gooood.

satiety damn gao.

and omg the pumpkin tempura that i forgot to take a pic.

how can some orange pumpkin dipped in some batter and taste so good.

eyes glistening.

madness. 

So what else have I been preoccupied with recently?
Shows.
Variety, drama, games.
I can spend an entire hour on episodes because each chapter takes around 10 mins.
And another hour on shows.
An hour and a half actually.
I don't blog as frequent so I wouldn't say blog.
Then getting summon here and there.
Going out.
Actually that pretty much sums all up.
Then sleeping in.
Now that I'm cleared of a job..I honestly dk how am I going to pass my next 2 weeks.
There wouldn't be any jobs avaliable for just 2 weeks.
Work downstairs my house izzit.
I feel like a loafer doing nothing but lepak and play so much.
Till the extent that I will feel guilty if I go out and play and spend money cos I should be working instead.
If this carries on, I might volunteer spring cleaning seriously...

Right..and about the gathering.
Very extremely jealous of the hospitality that J received.
Roarrr.
But nvm lo.
Maybe cos they know him better.
Unfair unfair unfair.
Legit is gay partner.
Hmphhhh.
On the other hand, very appreciative and touched by auntie's gestures towards me.
Be it making and helping me feel comfortable in a foreign environment.
Or helping me to ease to awkwardness by speaking to me etc.
It feels nice to have someone take care of you in a foreign environment. (:
Like she knows when I'm awkward or lonely and all.
Chuwa.
Maybe through the surprises planned, we got a lottle closer somehow.
It's a very nice feeling.
Maybe cos she was in the same situation before so she knows how to deal with it etc?
Bull also, for taking care of me all the time.
But not so consistent hahhaa.
Because he needs to entertain the kids and look after his pie.
And honestly, the worst thing to do when you are angry is to walk out or walk away from your partner.
Should have done that for UK eh?
That deserved ignorance.
But I didn't.
I walked towards him instead and we had things thrashed out despite the rage hurt and disappointment I felt.
Oh andd seeing bull interact with kids, warmed up my heart and sent my heart fluttering once again.
I thought i wouldn't feel the same way again cos it wasn't the first.
But the same old feeling came back and this time round I captured a pic of him with kiddo.
It felt like everything we envisioned turned into a reality as I watched him interact with those kiddo.
He made me feel that everything was not just a dream but a reality we are working towards now.
And there aren't much chances for me to see him with kids.
So yeap.
Then he makes me think of how he would interact with our kids next time and that thought was just damn pleasant.
Hehehehe.
Chuwa chuwa.

dies inside.

stupid J had to chuay daiji beside me while i was enjoying this little moment.

grrrr.

i can totally put this as my dp.

and fantasize about it whole day long ahaha.

like how i sit and watch rainbow for an hour.

i might be able to look at this for an hour.

same as that day where my prince charming met me after his conference.

DIEDED.

The show I've been watching.

ultimate gooness and silly-ness.

and i love how they add a twist of drama plus comedy plus action in the show.

like very "detective-vy" yet about romance too.

it's a plot for all. 

and the fairytale component as well.

cos it's a story about a mermaid.

and it's quite cool watching them incorporating "facts" about mermaid into the show itself.

like: mermaid tears = pearl, they can erase people's memory if they kiss them, they speak in extremely high frequency so only kids who are more sensitive to sounds can hear them, kennut anyhow touch else something will happen to them etc. 

and they are such honest creatures.

i love how they potray the female lead to be so naive and so sealy.

it kinda reminds me of myself hahaha.

i kennut.

i'm better canz i not silly until like that.

oh and their ability/weakness to only love 1 person in their entire life, till the day they die.

which was really sweet yet sad fact.

i am bull's mermaid.

NOT maid.  

and bull say he is willing to be my mermaid tooo after hearing this "fact"/legend.

hehehehhehe small happy iz me. (:

so we are each other's mermaid and he is my snowman kekekke.