made up pictures

he brought me here. 

so kwel.

really dk how he find these in such a short time frame.

kekeke.

MAKE UP DAY!

wished i took more pictures.

but time was tight.

went to phoon huat before that.

then to here!

totally clueless but i love the suspense heheheh.

he told me that he actually went to look for flowers around my neighbourhood but don't have.

but so AWWWWWW.

can't imagine if i were to receive flowers again hehehe.

mash and bangers.

so yummy!

love it so much.

with sweet onion sauce.

this was so good.

slightly salty.

 but idc haha.

this was followed by tamp industry visit hehhe. 

chuwa even though so simple.

how hard can it be to make this simple minded me feel happy.

and he gave me this tooo.

it looked so scary.

but so fun even though i played this on my own ahahha. 

cheong proj work after this. 

then baking!!!!

heng got mummy help me else whip until my arms break.

needed to do this chop chop else my baobei wait so long.

yay successful layering.

though bull said it was too thick. 

but feeling so accomplished hehe.

then after speaking for a while, i made this.

so hard to get the layering right.

not very nice leh.

but well. 

can you believe that this is home cooked?

i can't.

it looks legitly like restaurant standard. 

on its own it is gooood.

the char siew was ok actually.

very tender but without sousvid also nice leh. 

the noodle very gooood cos won't nua.

the broth also good cos bueller spent so much time making it.

all the jing hua. 

don't compare this to original branch, it is good really.

and honestly, original also not that nice what.

hahaha. 

i like leh. 

can taste all the efforts behind this bowl of goodness. (:

i think for bull's cooking, what i taste isn't about how yummy it is or the sweet salty components.

it's more of tasting the love and effort behind each item he makes. 

(:(:(:

top view.

searing.

oh but bad thing about his cooking is always need spend super alot time to make.

including plating.

but nevertheless it's the efforts.

on this day, it was make up day part 2 too.

so sad. 

but okay...finally everything is in the light.

finally there's nothing else left to ask, nothing else left to know.

if only he knew how hard i tried to conceal my disappointment and not break down at all.

i tried so damn hard.

and i'm glad i did.

cos until now, other than those teeny bit that i wiped away, i haven't cried yet.

idk if it's because i'm healing, or i'm letting go, or i'm just concealing.

so i'm still waiting to see. 

i wished i could record all those he said that day.

i wished.

but now all is inside the memory only.

this is called htht.

legit one.

so deeeep.

all the listening.

all the empathy.

all the understanding needed.

it felt gooood to have it thrashed finally.

and hearing from his point of view.

thumbs up.