envision

do you know.
that i nv dared to envision the future.
for fear of not knowing what's going to happen.
for fear of each and every what ifs.
for the unpredictability.
but for some reason, recently, i've been daring to dream.
daring to plan.
daring to ask.
izzit cos more stability?
idk.
but this is quite a positive change.
but i hope this change isn't something i will end up being disappointed with.

and marriage and stuff.

it just feels scary.

it makes me scared.

"if kisses do fly, mine is on the way~", no matter how far you're away from me, i'm still feeling you cause you're my heartbeat.

SO CRINGEY. he said this to her on v day on a social media post.
i kennut.
me feels it all cos i know how bad it could be being worlds apart.
but if love binds you enough, nothing will change you.

"i feel butterflies whenever i see you. i feel more than that. i feel the whole zoo whenever i see you."
can anyone come up with anything cheesier/sweeter?

spending the entire day not doing anything at all.
so hard to find any mood to do anything at all.
except to sleep.
spent an hour plus scrolling fb.
just to find the spot where i left.
to watch those videos i wanted to watch.
lolol.

number 8 happens all the time so i don't bother throwing a fit.

i throw a fit for all other reasons hahaha.

number 9!!!!!!

it was only a dream but it just feels different after dreaming about them.

it felt so real like it really did happen.

and i always get this sad feeling for the entire day after dreaming about something negative about them.

oh that's a nightmare lol.

negative dream = nightmare.

yes.

both me.

typing............typing..............

then nothing and suddenly he is offline.

huh? 

question mark. 

21!

stay away bitches and bimbos.

actually ALL same sex as me just fuck off. 

GRRRR.

before i dig out your eyes and slap you in the face.

DO NOT BLOODY LAY YOUR EYES ON WHAT'S MINE!

i will kill you if i have to. 

HMPH.

i call this finally finally day.

cos we finally get to eat montanna.

and we finally saw tsum tsum hehehhe.

initially only wanted to order waffles.

but hungry was me so i ordered this tooo. 

but ok leh. 

the salsa was good though. 

mac n cheese waffles.

it wasn't amazing.

it was normal.

with truffle so it tasted good.

oh and it was very fluffy too. 

THAT legendary cake.

my my.

it was normal.

hahahahha.

the kitkat choc was soooo goooood.

i nv knew it was this good.

pocky tasted disgusting.

and omg seared marshmallows!!!!!!!!!

that seared taste to it, the bitterness chaoda plus the sweet fluffy melty marshmallows.

I DIEDED.

basically the deco on the cake tasted better than the cake itself.

wished i could cut it vertically in the middle than start from the side.

the sides consisted of loads of the cream thing so it was quite ni.

matcha plus black sesame was not overpowering so that wasn't too bad.

MY TSUM TSUM.

OMG SO HAPPY EH.

they were so cute!!!!

felt like disney came to live.

minature disney land.

wished i could climb on them and ride on it hahaha.

somebody happy cycling away.

SO SEALY.

idk if it's photographer no good or lighting no good.

i look so ugly and fat and short and stout.

boooooo.

so not photogenic-ly.

this is post 1. 

back shot.

this is post 2. you see he is twisted.

he turned around and caught me taking picture of him. 

this is post 3. his face started changing.

this is post 4. 

tell me who is the one who keeps 扭来扭去

All 4 taken less than few seconds away.

so sealy iz me.

this is the pigu of tsum.

i still so happy.

taking picture.

those ppl behind must be like eh girl salah la. 

hi pooh pooh.

why they made you so small. 

princess day!!!!!!!!!

hehehehehhe.

he shopped with me.

chuwa max.

shoes to clothes and everything else.

grocery also. 

extra hugs extra kisses and everything else i needed.

kekekekkeke.

super chuwa this white off shoulder.

tried one more before, also belly nice.

but off shoulders make me look fatter not slimmer leh.

other ppl wear, their shoulder look so nice.

izzit really must have collar bone.

finally a nice har gao. 

thin skin, very meaty filling. 

and very fresh huge prawns.

best part is having dim sum for dinner and not high tea.

chuwa max hehehe. 

yucks.

thick skin.

and sauce not nice enough.

hawker center can do better hor. 

this one not bad. 

but now xo fried carrot cake is my top rated.

can still rmb how it taste like.

so damn goood.

a very different char siew!!!

i prefer this over mitzo.

very lean yet flavourful.

love it. 

and not too hard! 

i can have more of this than what i could tank at mitzo hahaa. 

bulll say must take in an angle as though it looks alot. 

but i guess i failed ahaha. 

for once.

i ate an entire liusha bao on my own.

i honestly, really, don't really like liusha.

but i am okay with salted egg.

hahahah.

i mean both are similar but i am more ok with salted egg than liusha.

not bad eh. 

even though i felt like throwing half the pao to bueller hahaha. 

waiting! 

hehehehe.

too sweeeet i kennut.

sit down and wait hehe. 

then he paparazzi me!

I look so preetz and huggable from this angle.

Like those kinda girl anyone see also want to be with her kinda girl hahaha.

i was waiting and keeping a lookout. 

then somebody boo me from behind sia.

i was about to see his message then he accuse me of deleting his notification.

grrr. 

naughty bueller recently keep paparazzi me but i chuwa hehe. 

FINALLY. 

finally he puts his cam into use other than food haha. 

finally some pictures of my face taken by him. 

was watching some entertaining puppet show at hi lion. 

then somebody supposed to go walk one round.

but he ended up standing on the opp side taking pic of me?!!

me totally engrossed hurhurhur. 

i caught him.

i was like what took him so long to walk back after i spotted him on the opposite side.

then he was hiding behind this pillar.

srg. 

i knew he took me!!!

cos his phone angle too dubious.

he still deny. 

i am tummy worm hor.

my cover.

crycrycrycry.

why you break.

sobz.

so sad iz me. 

tonight's dinner! 

not very nice.

really dk how the kr rest make it.

that sweetness.

HOW.

i really want to re-create at home leh.

and the fluffy egggg. 

the one at kr really damn goooood.