waiting for the heater to heat up right now.

shall bath then might head out.

love weekends.

cos i can sleep for many many hours and not wake early to report for work. ^^

 

work has been okay, not too bad.

the only thing i keep complaining about is the long long long long ride to work. ): ): ):

on the other hand, i'm very very thankful for the shuttle service provided. (:

as long as there aren't any conflicts or mistakes made, i'm okay.

as long as there's something for me to do, i'm okay too.

i wanna survive this 3 months, which i believe i will.

last monday seemed very far away while i was having my holidays..

but right now, its over and gone.

2 months and 3 weeks.

we can do this.

 

on top of these, i'm missing all of my dear friends..

i can't head out late at night, i can't head out on weekends.

i'm like trapped?

restrictions.

wanna meet up with all of them, want us to laugh together..

because at work, it's really individual work.

there's not much of interaction, so i might not speak for hours.

and after i come home, i just talk and talk and talk.

and i realised, there isn't much laughter in my life since then.

and there's BFF.

haven't met her for very long time too.

was supposed to meet up during holidays.

but due to unseen circumstances, we didn't manage to meet up.

hopefully, these days of meeting up will come very soon.

and 3 months will passs ASAP.

cannot believe that tmr is soo near.
can tmr not come? can we have more holidays?
sent those people going over to china for 3 months yesterday.
sigh, time is passing really fast.
hopefully they can adapt well and stay healthy and happy. (:
really having mixed emotions about tmr.
i will have faith that everything will be okay. (:
please allow dresses for formal wear else i will have to look high and low for all those troublesome clothes to fit.
argh my video is not loading. >.<

typed and deleted, typed and deleted.
will you be the one?
are you the one?

12.40 going to 1am now.

yesterday was a very happy day.

to me, it is still considered today because i haven't slept.

it's only considered tomorrow until i have woke up.

hehe. ^^

i'm actually dead beat.

physically and mentally exhausted.

but i'm afraid that if i do not blog today, the feelings won't be the same anymore and the retelling of the tale isn't that accurate.

so gonna give a proper recount now! (:

 

so today, was class gathering at ECP! (:

outta the whole class, only half came.

not a lot of people, but i realised that smaller group bonds better and plays better. (:

met naby, and we alighted at wrong stop.

so we had to walked i dunno how many kilometers from the bus stop till out BBQ pit.

with 3 heavy bags of stuff.

and i was telling naby that by the end of today, confirm got hand muscle and will lose weight one.

began our BBQ preparation, wrapped the food and stuffs.

xinyi and sushan were the ones tending the pit so yeap.

they had a hard time getting the fire started cos the charcoal was to blame.

"learnt" how to ride a bike, but ended up still CMI.

and now my butt hurts alot.

somehow i think i still smell salt water in my hair.

mg and shaun arrived and they bought a cake cos it's nabys' birthday and jia hui's bday is coming too.

surprised naby, sang birthday song and smeared cream on each other's faces.

super epic.

plan was to smear on birthday girls only, ended up everyone face also kena.

dirty, but veryyyyyyyy funn. (: (: (:

because everyone dared to play, and there was bathroom to wash up.

that's what makes everything more fun X13492854758365239575239. (: (: (:

bought water balloons but they didn't provide the pump so we ended up buying transparent plastic bags with those strings and playing water bomb.

kekekekkekekkeke. =DDD

while filling it with water, sushan randomly threw one on me and it landed on my face.

omg. funny max but pain cos it "bombed" .

that impact. hahahha. but was busy laughing so who cares. ^^

and my lips were salty when i licked it.

hahahaha.

then comes jh and ml, and we started throwing.

half wet at first, then whole body wet, then hair also wet.

laughed so hard and ran like mad while playing this.

mg and shaun got pushed into the water.

lmao.

splashing water here and there, using whole pail of water pouring on one another. =DDD

this was fun too, cos we had everyone involved and all of us were wet, including those who didn't brought clothes.

then we proceeded to play volleyball.

i didn't join in cos i suddenly had leg cramp while cleaning up.

jh, naby and stacy lent a great hand in helping me relieve the cramp.

hurts soo much and i don't know why it took so hell damn long to go away and it was so sudden.

i can still feel it now, ouch.

that feeling is still there, like gonna cramp anytime soon.

jh had to leave early cos she had to attend her friend's birthday BBQ.

glad that i brought my camera, glad that her memory card could fit else totally wasted, and glad that she was the photographer cos many photos were taken! (:

thank you. (:

we played sparkles!!!

okay not me, i think i was too lazy else too tired to light them up.

but the rest.

happy and really glad they enjoyed. (:

though i realised, that there were no alcohol this time round.

except for one bottle of bicardi. (:

BUT we still enjoyed ourselves equally. (:

i don't know..it's like there's really really no words to describe how fun it was, how enjoyable it was, how happy i was.

although i didn't ate much and everyone wasn't that full and stuff.

seems like all these aren't a factor at all.

amount of people, amount of food, with or without alcohol.

seems like just the presence of one another made everything right. (:

 

gonna sleep sooon.

have been sleeping very very late these days.

another long day tmr. (:

listening to songs as i'm typing away. (:

done with heartstrings.

not really awesome, but okay. (:

the first show where the popular guy and the unpopular girl actually survived obstacles. (:

 

i love today's weather.

it was soo nice and awesome. (:

very very cooling.

just the right temperature with all the cold sweats. (:

loooking forward to thursday!!!!!!

i hope most of my classmates will be there.

really really want them to be there.

 

anyway, the scene of hanging out at a cafe and chatting over a cup of coffee have been replaying over and over again in my mind.

i miss the coffees from the cafes. (:

CUPPUCCINO or a frappe.

yum yum yum.

 

annyeong. gonna watch now. (:

hi there. (:
1 am plus right now.
I know I'm able to fall asleep if I try to close my eyes right now.
I thought I would be a good girl today and turn in early, since I've decided to hold my videos till tomorrow.
but I'm being a baddie here and not letting my brain rest.
told myself I wanna blog today, or yesterday, since it's already past 12 now. (:
sitting straight up on my bed as I'm typing away.
feeling very sticky, due to the cold sweats and effects of medications. :/
am feeling a lot better right now, but I dislike the medications the doctor prescribed.
yes it helped, but the phlegm are all stuck in either my nose or lungs cos they have became viscous.
figuring out a way to get them out, by all means.
cos if I get congested lungs, haha, gone case.
I knew I felt chest pain last night, but it wasn't anything major so It's okay.
hopefully it doesn't bothers me again. (:
I know it won't. (:

so exams are over, I apologize for the two negative posts previously.
should have been happy that exams are over.
right now, I wonder how the results are.
I wonder if I can really push my GPA up.
hope for a miracle.
but hmm shouldn't be worrying about this eh?
since its over, let's look forward. (:

stayed at home for the past few days.
partly because I'm sick, partly because I wanted to stay home, partly because I wanted to watch my shows. (:
watching heart strings now. (:
front part was boring. middle was okay.
2 more episodes, then the end. (:

really happy today. (:
was awaken by the sound of a doorbell while I was still in slumberland.
and I knew immediately who was it.
grandpa!! (:(:
we didn't went to gran's yesterday, and grandad knew that we were all sick, so he dropped by today.
hehe so me in a mess and sweat, woke up to grandad's good morning greeting. (:
so he sat with us while we were having our brunch.
then he helped us tui na, one by one. (:
and there he was again, "reprimanding" me for not giving him a call, for not telling him that we were ill, saying he won't forgive me if there's a next time.
keke how cute.
I know he dotes us,but why would I or we trouble our dear grandpa.
though he means us good.
hmm well. love him a lot.
he brought snacks too.
felt very blessed, very fortunate, very happy to have been showered by his love.
(:(:(:
I like how we update each other, share stories.
I like how he's always here when I'm ill.
despite our many years major age difference.
I'm so used to having him around to massage my acupoints when I'm unwell ever since primary 2.
at times I really wonder what will I do if he weren't here.
self massage? it ain't the same, the strength and everything.
I rely on him too much. ^^
he ain't any professional, he isn't a Chinese physician.
he learns everything on his own, and I admire this point about grandad very much. (:
and they work. his massages.
though some acupoints hurts, but you feel loads better after that. (:(:(:
but maybe, I'm used to it.
hmm. deh. (:

so, dad mum and lil sis went out to get groceries.
so sis and I stayed at home.
peaceful. (:
went downstairs to help them with those bags of groceries.
and while waiting for them alone downstairs, it reminded me of those times.
hmm.
dinner was baked rice from wan chai HK cafe.
hadn't had something so appetizing in days.
a hot cup of milo for supper.
you know how great it tasted?
awesome. yummy. (:(:

anyway, though there wasn't much today, it's the simplicity that made me happy.
I haven't felt this way for long.
perhaps I'm outta stress zone now and am really enjoying life as how it should be.

planned week next week.
looking forward to the events planned. (:
optimism, this should be way.
wonder why cant i have this mindset forever all year through.
negativity, pessimism sucks.
should really head to bed now.
maybe continue tmr. (:

i'm feeling like an empty shell.

legs not attached to body.

effects of medications.

i think i can sleep alll day.

napped for few hours today already.

i still feel like sleeping right now.

few more minutes before another round of medication.

feeling warm right now, but i guess its normal.

afraid of taking my temperature to confirm.

but yeah, speedy recovery please..

i wanna enjoy my holidays and i don't wanna miss out anything that is planned.

 

craving for all the food i can't eat.

bubble tea, fried stuff, chicken.

basically i think i should be a vegetarian sua.

because one mistake in diet, whole night no need sleep already.

but is okay, i will resist the tempts because i know what will do me in.

 

i wanna send my friends off very very badly.

but chances are, i might not succeed because i know very well what reason it might be.

praying hard that i'm able to go.

come to think of it, if i had persist, i would have been one of them right now.

it always seems like everything was so close yet so far.

but yeap, i promised myself, so yup . (:

the sudden urge hoping for someone to be here desperately.

i feel like breaking down.

i need to stop thinking about it.

 

anyway, exams are over. (:

glad that it is.

not long before attachment begins.

i'm gonna miss all my friends so much.

3 months of seperation, some heading overseas, the rest attached to all different parts of singapore.

 

there's like so much to be said. but maybe, better left unsaid.

some i don't know how to start, some i don't know how to phrase.

but people who've been there with me, thank you.

 

everyone is like sick.

daddy and sis should just go and visit the doctor.

and i guess everyone is irritable today.

not in very good mood though.

i tried so hard in protecting myself, immune system fought like mad, but i still got the virus.

its like, mum and i are sick.

but she gets to stay home all day doing nothing but i've still got exams to mug for.

then she goes on telling daddy to take leave just to fetch lil sis for her.

so then should i get daddy to seat for my exams?

3 hours of sleep last night, visited the doc today and fetched sis and bought dinner.

mummy was staying at home all the way through.

it just isn't fair.

 

on tuesday when i started sneezing away, i knew this wasn't right.

because i don't usually sneeze that badly or have a flu this bad, something was on the way.

on wednesday, it got worst because i wasn't taking proper medications and wasn't having enough rest.

i was burning my body out because i was forcing it to function for examinations.

and due to my weak immune system and sensitivity, my cold isn't like normal people.

where panadol heals and strepsils works and pi pa gao works.

if it isn't treated correctly, it goes on to fever and cough.

and it was only today where everything ends and i had the chance the visit the doctor.

proper rest and recovery begins today.

i don't know how long it this going to last.

having fever and cough are nightmares to me.

having to see a doctor and having to take medications are a chore to me.

i'm afraid of being sick. very afraid.

because i know sometimes it can be fatal.

i believe i've said umpteenth time about hating coughing.

hear my cough, you will know it is different from others.

very deep loud cough as though trying to get your lungs outta your mouth.

wtf needs ventolin when they gets flu?

know what, sometimes even doctor's medication don't work.

that's how bad.

and i take a lot longer than normal people to recover.

a month? or more.

coughing so badly you puke out your food from your intestines.

how's that?

because i have a bronchitis background.

it scares me you know, the way i fall ill.

will anyone ever understand?